You won’t know that it’s the last time until it never happens again
When I was pregnant I remember reading a post on Facebook. It was one of those picture quotes. The type you’re likely to swipe past in a hurry, the type you’ve probably read before. I can’t quite remember the exact wording however the general gist was not to underestimate how much you’ll miss your children’s late night cuddles when their older. It was clearly aiming to capture the hearts of sleep deprived parents but that one line stayed with me. As my due date grew closer I couldn’t help myself thinking back to the post.
Could this be the last time he wakes me up with hiccups? Could this be the last time I listen to his little heart beat inside my belly?
It’s safe to say when D-day actually arrived and Rory was unwillingly pulled from my VaJJ – with a pair of forceps designed to aid the birth of baby elephants – I did NOT think….could this be the last time I ever feel a contraction?
Aside from my brilliant support network, this Facebook post deserves a lot of praise. It was with me through the hazy newborn days, through weaning, teething and returning to work. Helping me to keep my shit firmly together even on the shittest of days.
As Rory grows this one line still stays with me. It’s a reminder to savour the good times, the sloppy kisses and the wobbly first steps. The tastes of new foods and the trips to the seaside. But more importantly it’s a light in the dark and difficult day’s.
I know a day will come – probably a lot sooner than I expect – when he no longer wakes in the night and cries for his Mommy. When he can brush his own teeth and no longer wants to hold my hand. The things which once tested my patience and pushed me to my parenting limit will just be a thing of the past. I’ll long for the things which were once frustrating, the days where he’d spend 22 hours on my right hip. The days when he needed me to wipe his snotty nose and put on his socks.
So for now I just try to treat every moment like it’s the last. When the last moment does happen you won’t realise until it’s too late.
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